When I was 10 years old I meet a man who was 30 years older than me and who I liked a lot. To be honest he wasn’t the most handsome or the most charming but something about him caught my attention. For many years I would see him from afar; I was wanting, longing and waiting for the day I could get near him and talk to him. I even remember looking myself in the mirror and telling myself “Not yet. I’ll wait a little more so he doesn’t see me as a child. But, when the time comes he will be mine”
He had a severe case of scoliosis and due to his physical imperfection he was unable to marry anyone or have a serious relationship. Even so I made up my mind to marry him when I got older and if he wouldn’t come to me then I would come to him. So I waited and the day came when I became 19. I remember going to a same place as him every Tuesday and Saturday, and I couldn’t get my eyes off of him. I tried my best to not show that I was physically attracted towards the man. However, it was simply too obvious and the man noticed at some point.
Once I noticed that he started to see I was into him and that he felt flattered. I couldn’t help myself and I began to give him love letters and poems to express my love towards him. Doing this was not normal of myself. I was usually the hard type and I wasn’t flirty at all. But, all of that become second place when I meet this man; I wanted something serious with him and I wanted to marry him. Also, I was the one who did the pursuing because I felt that he was the right guy. Love can make you do crazy things but love changes you. It’s sometimes due to circumstances like the one I mentioned.
Sadly, the man rejected me and told me to find someone else. I was shattered but I listened to him. But, till this day I still think about him and wish that he would have said yes. But, as for is it a good thing to lie about love? I think it depends. I know why that man rejected me and it was because he loved me. It was obvious in the ways he treated me that he wanted something more with me but he knew that his physical deformity would get in between and impede us from ever being a normal couple and also he was 30 years older than me. I don’t mind age, neither my parents but to him it was a big deal. He thought that his deformity and age would cause him to loose me at some point in his life so he preferred to let me down. But, even so I love him till this day and if I ever did get married with someone else I will always think of that deformed man and wish something would have happened.
